It's more imprtant what you are doing

Before you read my journal, I want you to know that I hate to lie to my friends and teachers. I might write complaints against KUIS or classes, which I will probably hurt your feeling. But I can’t help excusing myself. I know it’s not good to do such a thing. I don’t want to do if I can, but that’s what I am. I just want to be honest to myself all the time. This is just how I felt. I hope you would understand.

I’m going to write about new life at KUIS, and then Orientation Unit.

My first two months at KUIS have nearly passed. I guess I am quite used to my new life at KUIS. However it’s still hard for me to get on trains for a long time. I always wish I had dokodemo-door with me. Anyway I love class 10!! I want to come to school every day and hang out with my friends around yellow sofa.

I was really happy when I knew that I was a member of advanced classes. You know I was in the English course at high school. One of my teachers always said that we had to be in advanced classes and could join one at universities. I was kind of upset about that. I wanted to be one of course, but I love the teacher and have respected her since I was in the first grade. I just didn’t want to let her down. Even I did know that I could do English better than my friends at my school, it doesn’t mean I could join one of the advanced classes at this university and succeed in English. I felt really nervous in my first few days. In the very first freshman English class, there were students who could speak English much better than I could. I was really scared of speaking, but at the same time I felt like catching up with them.

Next, I’m going to talk about orientation unit. It was much easier than I had thought. After the first freshman class I was a little disappointed, because it was quite different from my imagination. We didn’t get any homework and I didn’t feel uncomfortable in the class at all. I was told that I would get too much homework, and I thought I would be the only one who is not good at speaking English. After a few freshmen English classes, there were lots of “why?” in my mind. I was really worried. My friends in other classes have got a lot of homework and seemed to very busy with it. Maybe they will beat me in English a year later. It is more important to do something by ourselves. I knew that very well, but I couldn’t stop thinking that it is not fair. Since this university told our parents that we should not do part-time-jobs because they would give us a lot of homework.
I felt there were no big differences from my high school. We are doing similar things. The only different thing was that my classmates could speak a little bit better than my friends at high school. In this situation I can’t tell how many times I regretted being here. And I nearly lost myself.

Orientation unit was a little bit too long. I was quite surprised when I saw the hand-out which reads our schedule. Moreover there were some things that I could do at home by myself. I wanted to do things that it was difficult to do alone. I felt like “why do I have to do that kind of things and I come to class only for this??”
Our presentation was quite different from my imagination too. It was so noisy in my class that I could hardly hear anything that my friends talked about, and dividing us into two groups wasn't good idea I guess. No matter how much time we spend to prepare or practice for presentation, you have to hear not only one student but also another student at the same time. It might be difficult for you to listen to everything that each student say. I thought you could never know whether our presentations were good or not.
We have only a few presentation. I'm worried that I will really be able to present very well at the end of this year.
I begged to my parents to enter this university, and finally my dream came true. I wanted to shout “what is going on?” I loved freshman English though. It was a lot of fun to talk with friends or discussing the matters with them, but I wanted to emphasize that I came to KUIS to study not for only having good time or making friends. I guess I just expected too much. That’s why I was disappointed and depressed at the same time. However after a few weeks when I got used to KUIS, things were getting better. I often talked to my friends and ELI teachers around yellow sofa. From exchanging our opinions, I was changing my mind. I came to think of things in positive way. And I come to know very well about the way. My friends and teachers helped me a lot.
Now we went to British Hills, I think I could know more about each other including our teacher Kamsin. I enjoyed myself or just being with friends and you.

Thank you for reading my long journal. I want to keep in my mind what you said when we have meeting.
“Don’t care other people too much. It’s more important what you are doing.”